Finally

I finally posted my story on Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope. I find myself reading almost all of the stories on the site, afterall people are willing to share their experiences, so I am willing to read. Click on my picture to get to my story.

I have so many posts in my head. I feel kind of defeated with time lately though. It's never been a secret that the hubby and I have been struggling financially - so he has been working as much as he can and I have been working as much as I can - and basically everything else is falling aside. Now we are at a point where I am worried about money, but on the other hand I want us to be a family together and if I need to cancel cable and make some other sacrifices I will, because the hubby can't keep working as hard as he has been. I get 3 hours a night max with Lou before he is asleep. This week I worked on call 2 nights and went out one night (gasp!), and now I am bummed because I missed bedtime 3 nights this week. 3 nights. Plus today is Saturday and I am supposed to enjoy my whole day with the baby- instead the pager went off and I am now just home at 5 am trying desparately to get some sleep before my day begins in a few hours! Time with the hubby is non-existant, but we are very very cool with that. We want to focus on the baby and then spend an hour or two with each other later on in the night. The last day we both had off together was spent at the Brigham's Pregnancy and Infant Loss memorial. Not exactly a light day, but remembering Vincent is important to us.

So it is Halloween today! I can't wait for Lou's costume! But first I need to grab 3 hours of sleep, carve a pumpkin, go food shopping, make baby food and then go visit the hubby at work in costume and bring babes trick or treating (aka - get mommy candy!). Never mind the endless laundry, dishes and cleaning that have gotten put off :( Plus, the dogs are starting to act out - they are mad they do not get enough attention.

I am off to sleep! I can't wait to dress up my little man. I am not doing the costume I really wanted, but that's o.k. I guess, there is always next year.

Hope everyone has a lovely Halloween.