My turn, my turn!
This holiday season has been very hard to enter into. This is the second holiday without Vincent. The first Christmas with Louis. I am having a hard time balancing the joy of one with the sorrow of another. It just hasn't really felt like Christmas - you know? I am trying to get in the holiday spirit and listen to Christmas music on all my 24 hour shifts (just how many times do you think you hear Mariah Carey's All I Want for Christmas over a 12 hour period)? Let me tell you, it's alot.
So I have been searching a lot for things to make me feel special this holiday season. To try and have a peaceful season, but also acknowledge our losses. The hubby and I feel Christmas ornaments are special. We have collected a few ornaments each year of our marriage. My dad flat out told me my mom thinks my sparsely populated tree is pathetic - ohhh well, they all have meaning to us. In my relentless internet searching for Vincent this year- I stumbled across this:
I found it to be so beautiful - and the butterfly so symbolic. I then stumbled across this about the artist behind the ornament:
Stephey Baker is a licensed spiritual counselor, creative consultant and artist. She supports the whole you instead of compartmentalizing you into various boxes - boxes labeled business or personal - it's all LIFE! Stephey believes, ”We are all artists practicing the art of living. We are all creating our masterpieces called life. We create the experiences we want and we create the responses to the experiences we don’t want.” Stephey's Marked by the Muse creative living blog and one-on-one sessions teach other creatives how to get the "stuck-out" of their creative blocks and create the life they desire - By employing the creative process in navigating the highs and lows in life – anything is possible! Join her on twitter @stepheybaker.
I thought this was pretty nifty - I do need to just open myself up. Badly. It affects my relationships so poorly. I contacted Stephey and she is actually going to donate one of these beautiful ornaments - yippee! Just leave a comment below to enter - random.org will be picking a winner in the early morning hours of Friday.
So how is everyone else holding up this holiday season?
How am I holding up this holiday season? I'm just ignoring it really. I truly feel christmas is for children, and my children are dead. So I just ignore it -- as much as I can.
ReplyDeleteThat is stunning, a beautiful find.
ReplyDeleteI am not doing great this season, trying to make some effort for my surviving twin daughter but missing Ava so much it physically hurts.
Sending love and peace to you all. xxx
Wow, this is gorgeous.
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Beautiful choice, Jamie!!
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful ornament! I am doing...ok this holiday season, I don't know how but I am!
ReplyDeletejust beautiful! i'm doing better this month than last month! the holidays are just hard, but for some reason thanksgiving is harder than christmas for me.
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely beautiful ♥
ReplyDeleteWe just lost our boys in August so this holiday season is pretty rough. But I have my daughter's and they help keep me busy and they are so excited for Christmas :)
Thanks for hosting this giveaway! I love ornaments that have so much meaning and can remind me of my son!
ReplyDeleteKat @ In Dylan's Memory
Hi Jamie! Did you get the ornament that you won from my giveaway yet? If not, I hope it will be coming soon!
ReplyDeleteI am having a hard time facing Christmas again this year. I keep thinking about Freja, and how much fun she would be having this year as an almost two-year-old. When I've gone into the stores to do some shopping, all I see are gifts for her all around me.
How beautiful!
ReplyDeleteThat is so beautiful. Our family collects ornaments every year too that has meaning. This is my first Christmas. I lost my Sienna in September and it has been hard. I have good days and I have really bad days. I am glad that I am not alone though.
ReplyDeleteVery beautiful!!! This holiday season has turned out to be harder than I thought it would be. It is our first without Juanito and his 1st angelversay is on the 29th, so i am struggling just a bit. I really need to open up and just let it all happen.
ReplyDeleteThat is beautiful...butterflies always remind me of Mikayla. Peace to you and all the BLMs this Christmas.
ReplyDeleteThe holidays are the hardest for me, and I'm trying to be strong for my other kids, but sometimes I feel like I'm falling apart. My son passed from SIDs two years ago, but it still feels like yesterday.
ReplyDeleteI love the ornament. I would love to have one for my collection, but I think another BLM I know would love to have it in memory of her daughter. So if I win, I would give it to her. :)
What a beautiful ornament! I have my moments here and there but I think for the most part I am holding up pretty well. This is our 2nd Christmas without her.
ReplyDeleteThis is a beautiful giveaway item. Hope I made it in time. :)
ReplyDeleteThis holiday is much better than last year and the year prior. But, I must say... the holidays... still are a reminder that I no longer have my parents and Ella. And, that makes me sad. Hugs, friend. <3
Such a beautiful ornament. I am really missing my son this Christmas. Last year I was so excited about my little one's first Christmas and I never imagined I would lose him.
ReplyDeleteI love this ornament. It totally symbolizes Kennedy to me. I'd be honored to win it. Hope you are doing well...I'm doing the best I can be, I guess. Wishing we all were with our babies this Christmas rather than missing them. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful ornament! I love it! The holidays are tough, easier the second time around, but not especially easy either. Much love to you!
ReplyDeletereally pretty
ReplyDeleteSo pretty!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! Thank you for having a giveaway!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful giveaway.. Thank you so much for hosting...
ReplyDeleteBeautiful...thanks so much for hosting a giveaway this year!
ReplyDeletewhat a beautiful ornament. Its hard this year because although I feel so lucky to have a beautiful baby boy...I still wish we had Jonathan too. I feel your pain *hugs*
ReplyDeleteWhat a nice idea!
ReplyDeleteI could not even bring myself to put up a tree yet, and I am not sure I will. It was last year on the 23rd I was admitted to the hospital. On the 1st my little Henry was born. The holidays will just never be the same for me again.
Thinking of you and your family, and Vincent too.
Sam10(Julija)