Hmmm. hCG 4

So we are still within the normal range. Levels went from 312 - 648. ... but that was 71 hours :( 

I know that normal doubling times are 48-72 hours- but boy would I have felt better if it was higher. Now I have an u/s scheduled for 8/28 to hopefully see a little sprout. My OB  doesn't think we need to do anymore hCG levels - hopefully I will NOT call her and get another one done at the end of the week.  I'm trying not to!!!

The whole day really sucked actually. I went to the doctor for a BP check and to get my results. The med tech/ nurse assistant / complete idiot really fucked up. I sat in the chair for my BP reading and she mentioned todays hCG results were back. 

me: Oh, really? Awesome! What are they?

clueless girl: 312

me: oh fuck - so I am having a miscar..... wait, it is the same exact value as last Friday?

cg: well these are today's results

me: but that is the SAME EXACT number as Friday's

cg: well that is not good then

me: the SAME number - are you sure?

cg: (all exasperated now) - it says right here - 8/14 - that's today!!!

me: OMG YOU IDIOT -TODAY IS 8/17 - WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

cg: oh, here let me take your BP

me: well you just insisted I was having a miscarriage so I don't think now is the time for BP readings but knock yourself the fuck out - by the way - the regular cuff is slightly small for me - use the large

cg: we never use the large. I mean this is the adult cuff. Your arms aren't huge. This is what we use

me: well - then just make sure my arm is within the measurement range.

cg: there isn;t a range - this is just the right cuff

At this point I called over another tech who confirmed YES I AM toward the upper limit of the regular cuff and SHOULD use the large

So when I FINALLY got today's results I was a bit jaded.

I am going to try and stay really busy for the next 11 days. Reading, TV to catch up on, my little brother turning 18!!! I will try not to stress too much.

It doesn't help that we are coming up on Vincent's due date. God, that hurts. I feel like I can't even get excited. I have an irrational fear of a first trimester miscarriage. THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG 11 DAYS!!! Grrr.