A picture worth 1000 words. Brothers. These ornaments hang side by side on the tree. Vincent's ornament came from last years 25 Days of Giveaways - I won the giveaway hosted by Jessica, mom to Little One, Jonathan and Clover (aka Joshua!), at her blog What the Future Holds. There were so many beautiful ornaments, but the teddy bear was it for me as soon as I saw it! I didn't want an angel ornament, or a baby's 1st Christmas in Heaven or any other first christmas ornaments. Let's be honest, it was less about Vincent's first christmas as it was about our first Christmas without him. This teddy bear was perfect because I can look at it and smile.
We didn't have a tree last year. We didn't celebrate at all. I was 23 weeks pregnant and already on bedrest - Christmas was just a scary time last year. This year we went and picked out a tree on the one, yes ONLY one, day off both the hubby and I had together. The first ornament we hung was Vincent's. Later on that night I ordered one for Lou. Now we have the two teddy bears side by side for our two boys. I won another ornament this year from Holly in her giveaway at her blog Momentum. I haven't opened it yet - I am going to wait for Christmas Eve - but I am so excited.
I think Vincent is telling us he wants an ornament every year! Can you believe I have had some people say it is not fair to Lou to have Vincent's ornaments on the tree? It's like I am "idolizing" him. Seriously? Whatever. I just still love and miss him, that's all. Having Lou didn't erase Vincent's death.
They are by far the most treasured ornaments on my tree.
I think it's wonderful that you get an ornament for Vincent every year as well. I got Kaelen one last year and another this year and it's nice to have ornaments for him alongside his big sisters to look at. It will be a beautiful tradition in years to come.
ReplyDeleteI am slowly getting caught up on blogs and haven't been commenting but I had to say something here! You are simply creating memories for Vincent. You deserve that since you can't hold him in your arms. They simply don't know the pain of loosing a child or they would understand the need for items that remind you of him (hugs).
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